It is really difficult 

A photo popped up on my Facebook “on this day” feed a few days ago. It was taken a few days after I had run the Edinburgh marathon. I looked like this: 

Today, after three months of curtailed running due to injury, I look different. My stomach has rounded and my hip bones don’t stick out, my arms are more muscular. I’ve tried to keep up my physique through cycling and strength training but it isn’t the same as running consistent high mileage weeks. I am no heavier on the scales but don’t look as tight and it is hard to accept. But I have to learn that I can’t keep my body at that point (11% body fat) indefinitely. I need to give myself the chance to heal and get stronger. Maybe I’ll achieve that level of fitness again, but I hope that if I do it will be with a better understanding of the costs that come with it. 

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3 thoughts on “It is really difficult 

  1. Relate to this so much. I’ve been trying to think about lately how my body is this live thing–it’s not concrete. It’s done so much for me so I keep trying to appreciate it at all the different stages–even the ones I’m not so fond of (the softer ones). Great post, I’m sure a LOT of people can identify with you. x

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